Thursday, June 16, 2016

Booze booze booze 21 is good

Tonight I got o have a few drinks with friends. Drinks are very enjoyable I am so happy to be able to legally drink. Tonight Callie worked today I studied all day. Tomorrow hopefully I blog more I have so much to do again, need to get it done

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

The 15th of june.

7 more days until I retest. The time flew by waiting. I am scared which is good because I need to study very hard. I pray to God I pass this retest very well. I feel like my mind has gotten off of track. I have a new idea to set goals and things I want to achieve to help myself be more productive again. Hopefully I will find the areas to make goals in something attainable and that I can achieve to work at everyday. Tonight Callie went out after a night at a wednesday night youth service. The service wasn't bad it talked about relationships but what I don't like about the church is that it doesn't focus on the bible it adds the bible to the sermon instead of the sermon being around the bible. Since my friendship with Brad and learning about friendship it has been interesting to evaluate people as future friends. I have noticed recently that a person I want to be friends with doesn't put his friends first unless it's a very specific friend and doesn't invite friends into his life but they have to fit his life. He can also be dishonest and has principles that I do not believe in. I do not like that and do not want to become that type of person. At the same time I have been struggling with learning how to make friends so I will have to work on that again. I have developed a lot more hate and anger and learned how to suppress my emotions more in the military. I use to find something I love about everyone but now I find almost one thing I don't like about everyone. Today I started the book mere christianity which I believe will be a great read. There are some religious books that are excellent reads and I'm hoping this will be one of them. In the introduction it talks about the world gentleman changing from its old meaning of someone with wealth and property and now it is a useless word that just describes a good or bad person/your opinion on someone when we have plenty of other words for that. The word gentleman use to be a fact not an opinionated judgment. I thought that was very interesting because it leads me to what I have always believe, communication is the most important thing for us as humans to learn. We are the only living creature that can communicate he way we do and there is a reason for that. A lot that I want to type but I need my rest. Hopefully tomorrow I'll remember to go into my opinion of love as a verb vs love as a noun.

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Watching the new squadron establish

Today I had to wake up early to be a part of the public showing of the standing of our new squadron. It was a great experience. The problem was we left at 10:00 and were off for the day and I haven't been studying on my own which I really need to be doing. Callie and I ate chick-fill-a for lunch. We walked the dog a couple times and I got the new reader bumper to the car but it came in the wrong color so now I have to call and tell them tomorrow. I think I want tome the part in my hair over more towards the middle of my head. I need to start practicing instruments and develop a schedule when I have the day off or I tend to do nothing. I'll start working on that tomorrow. I ended the day with the movie "age of adeline" it was super cheesy and funny but it was a decent movie. It reminded me of Steph and her favorite film "tuck everlasting". So it wasn't a terrible day I just need to are more productive.

Monday, June 13, 2016

Cleaning duties... When we should be studying

Today we started a usual day of our Jon Puryear video in the morning. Then this afternoon we had to do cleaning duties. It's our third afternoon in a row we haven't been able to study on there time. It's pretty annoying because we plan our day around them making us studying and when we work instead in it doesn't prepare us for our national registry retest. Now unfortunately tomorrow our morning study will t they have chosen to lead our new squadron. Now to talk about the politics of today but keeping it brief. I am very upset about this shooting of a gay night club. Now homosexuals will be angry at gun laws and saying they are discriminated after the fact that gay marriage has been legalized and they are the ones to create gay nightclubs only to discriminate against themselves. This shooting only makes me angry at ISIS and makes me hope that there is a war in our near future, I would love to go out and fight them. I am also frustrated that this shooting will bring up new arguments against the second amendment. What sucks is this kind of thing only helps hilary and seems to hurt trump which is also annoying. The one good political thing I saw tonight (which I do not know if it was true) was obama making a decent speech about gun laws but I do not know if he is honest. So today wasn't a bad day over all I was done with my workout and work by 3:30 and Callie and I got to hangout. I was tired so I did sleep for a little bit and Callie and I ate leftovers. Tomorrow is Taco Tuesday and Alex and Ellysa called because we are making plans for camping or staying at their house Saturday night. Either way it will be fun and a good weekend with them. Hopefully tomorrow goes well and studying goes well. I can't wait to pass the national registry on the 22nd this month.

Thursday, June 9, 2016

June 9th, staying up late on a Thursday night

Today was a crabby day at work, it is a drag studying 5 days a week. After work I relaxed and watched some TV after I worked then worked out after work. I want to try workout supplements and study them. People say I look bigger then I did a year ago but I don't feel it, I want to be bigger and stronger. At the same time I have only been working out consistently for 9 months with one or two 1-2 month breaks. So the gains haven't been perfect. I will try some supplements after my research. I have a lot to do and its not bad that way. Tonight Callie and I grabbed some food and went out and picked up a piano from a dumpster drive through, and an old crate. Callie also got her invisiline in today and has had some complications. Life is a learning experience.

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

A day at work when you are waiting to retest

I wake up at a decent time around 7 then I go into work and watch Jon puryear videos about paramedic subjects. Then at 11 I go home and eat and watch TV. At 12:30 I go back into work and get on the computer and self study until about 4:30. Then I workout and hopefully Callie works out too. These days are so strange and today I just came home from the gym and did nothing but played phone video games for 2 hours. I am trying to stop playing phone video games. I am now listening to the bible to get some reading in. I also listened to an audiobook while walking ally tonight. I do enjoy audio books.

Monday, June 6, 2016

Finally found my blog on my computer. The Goo Goo Dolls made a new album today!!! May 6 2016. Life is a peculiar beast

    Seems like the years just fly by. Time moves faster then you think. Saturday this week I was so pissed off because I had to volunteer and helped out a person by switching shifts. I was so mad the whole day that he took my shift and was so grumpy about it. Then the day I worked I realized it wasn't as bad as I thought and I helped him out a lot so I felt better about it. Sometimes you just have to realize that you might be stressed one week but the next week will be amazing. Time will pass and you can't control it so everything will work out time will carry you through and you have no choice.
    I miss reading at night and having a dedicated schedule. The only thing I've always been dedicated to was working out and I still am. I'm still determined and have goals but things aren't what they were two years ago because now I'm married and have a steady job I'm not in school working for my future. It's so strange I'm not working for a future as much anymore nothing I'm dedicated to learning besides my current job. It's so crazy how things change that much. I still need to work on film, music, and my education and I don't know why I haven't been doing that. The Goo Goo Dolls have a great new song called "Boxes" and it describes how things change when you are married. You just care about your job and that person and taking care of each other. There's not as much to work for being married and having a job, now it's just living and growing. I understand a mid-life crisis now, it's that point when you have been doing the same thing for so long and you want the goals and high school life you had (or at least the one I had). Three years ago life guarding looking for the right girls to date and deciding what I will do for college and that I wanted to do film, I still want to do film but it's so weird I don't feel like that'll happen soon, but I never know maybe something will happen and I'll do it in three years. Life is very unexpected I should always be prepared. Thing have changed so much. It's strange that When I was 16 I never thought I would be in the military and wanted to get married young. Now I'm married young and in the military. Life is a peculiar beast.