Saturday, September 27, 2014


Things cannot be done without preparation. I'm ready I know I am, i will do this. I marked my gear today have a little more to do tomorrow and no stress this weekend maybe a small workout tomorrow I may run 6 miles. I feel good. Trust in God everyday all day. I love Callie so so so much. All is good. Trust in God and want it as bad as you want to breathe. .. So don't breathe

Thursday, September 25, 2014


This is Ben it's been forever since I've blogged I'm now in the airforce trying out for a hard job, I will make it I will perservere. But this is crazy and I'll start writing again to relive stress I love blogging and hope my family reads it. My life is about to change even more starting tomorrow!

Monday, July 21, 2014


My dad took us to a great Brazilian resteraunt the most expensive dinner that he's ever done. And Callie's mom cried it was so sweet I love Callie's family so much.

Leaving tomorrow morning

Holy shit I just keep crying thinking about leaving Callie I love her so much but have to make it.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

This is my last blog

This is my last blog for a while tomorrow I'm going to Meps then Tuesday leaving for the airforce I'll write papers and stuff it'll be lots of fun. I'm excited about this life I'm going into and this is where life and God has taken me may he lead me foward and I tell good blogs till the day I die. Someday my blogs will be long and good again but I do like writing a short rant on what's going on. Today I saw Michael Bennett and josh. Micheal is now doing metal detecting and is doing amazing in it being the top your ├╝ber in metal detecting. Josh is going high into the army and exceeding in schools. Then I saw Brad today. Things have been well. Ill miss Callie the most and like crazy but this is it. It's the next chapter. May Callie and I stay together and I better become a fucking pj and grow closer to God.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

One more day

Tonight's the night before my last. I can't believe my life is about to change. I have to make pj

Friday, July 18, 2014

When you love your gf

December, I signed for the millitary, giving up my life to them. Then in December I shared my life with this amazing women Callie. I see things in her that haven't came out yet but will. She's young, smart, beautiful, but very important, she's kind and sweet and has so many skills and gifts to obtain. Now I'm at the crossroad of leaving. I will go but I'll now be gone from her. I need to focus on Hod because both will succeed but The Lord is the only way they will. Today I swam 50 meters underwater at 9:03 after ultimate frisbey with my dep group. After swimming that 50 that God gave me strength to do. I now am sure I'll make this indoc and do Pararescue. I will not fail. There's so much to do and look foward to it's exciting. But now I'm just waiting till I leave and making the most of my time.